Leaving Scorpio season: Gemini Lunar Eclipse

During this recent Scorpio season, I came face-to-face with trauma around my father. Not the usual 'abandonment' story - I’ve become familiar with this one.

This time, it was the deeper wound. The one where he married four other women after my mom, and each of them had a daughter my age. The feeling of being replaced....over, and over. Always wondering if he would love her more. Feeling forgotten, pushed aside.

This was a trauma I didn't even think I had any longer. That had been healed years ago - or so I thought.

Not so.

Scorpio season in late October and through November may have brought similar themes up for you. Familial trauma. Those deepest hurts in the most insecure places of our hearts and beings. Where we have been hurt, abandoned, ‘replaced’. Where we felt powerless.

Scorpio does a great job at finding ways for us to re-live or face our traumas in UNAVOIDABLE ways. We can try to hide, mask, or run, but Scorpio is relentless. Because Scorpio wants you to TRANSFORM. Transformation doesn’t happen when life is sparkly and glittery. It happens in the mud, in the dark, and in the pain.

The beautiful progression from Scorpio to Sagittarius is this: Now we are in truth mode. Truth will set us free.

The truth I realized about my father?  I was never being replaced. He didn’t know how to love me the way I needed to be loved - and each of my step-sisters felt that same lack of love and commitment. They all were hurt and left as I was. And my father didn’t keep leaving us  - or me - because I wasn’t enough. He left because he never felt like he was enough. It had never been about me, or my lovability. This is the truth that I finally KNOW in my body, my being, my heart. Before, I told myself this in my head - but little did I know - my heart didn’t believe it. Until now.

So now, I get to move forward with a new truth. It has set me free.

Sagittarius wants the truth to set you free. Nobody else’s truth - YOURS.  Sagittarius wants you to re-write the story, re-write the beliefs.

With the lunar eclipse in Gemini we are pushed even more into truth. (This energetic push lasts 6 months)

Neptune direct asks us to hope and dream for what is true, not illusion.

Venus opposing Uranus stirs up our ideas of relationships: with people, career, and how we invest our time.

Now that we see and know our truth - what relationships will you accept? What other situations will you accept? What brings you EXCITEMENT, JOY - and feeling even closer to the person you are and are meant to be?

If it feels dull, heavy, like it's 'not yours' or it's based on lies or deception...it’s gotta go. 

“Freedom comes why you learn to let go,

Creation comes when you learn to say no’

- says Madonna in “The Power of Good-bye”

I couldn’t agree more.

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